Saturday, October 13, 2007

A special Letter to myself


My dear Self,

well! it has been like years you didnt write something to yourself..Days ran so quickly alot of changes occured in your life..some stuff let you up to the sky and others let you down to earth. Sometimes you had a very strange status you dont know where you are or where you go you just stand still only watching.I know that there might be alot of good stuff you gained going throught the last period of your life however much more experiences made you step alittle back from this life, people, problems, opportunities and may be you stepped back from your ownself. I dont have some organized thoughts in mind to write but just felt like I wanna listen to my inner wisdom for sometime. I wanna see what I am trying to hide, I wanna face myself with who I am now, It is like I dont wanna look to the past either blame myself for not being that person as before or I wanna stop at my status and simply give up.. I wont give up infront of that mixture of fear, blame, self-critiscim or inother words a bunch of negative energy that I never had before in ma life. I am like "Nanis! wake up","come On!!"But at the same time the process stops suddenly for some strange ideas and thoughts of the past that pop up, may be hurts may be some accumulated anger from some special people may be it is missing some old memories or feelings may be it is surprise for how people change and act with millions of different faces. Is it true that some people who used to be your model turned to be that depressing to me just for their own benefit just for a position or how they "look like" infront of people though you have been one of the supporting people to them when they were down and in need for someone. Isnt it strange that those people could just be a reason for your depression and losing confidence instead of being the reason of your survival and getting back to life. I really learnt to slow down in life...Never Give my "Trust" to anybody even if he/she looked like an ideal perfect wonderful great So called Model.Never EVER to hate yourself always love it advice accept it because it deserves to be loved, Learn that mistakes arent there to let you in continuous blame with yourself but it is there to teach you more about this life and let you more experienced. Learn to love everybody but dont get so close so as not to be hurt. Learn that your uniqness is for no body except yourself.Learn to love life it has alot to give you..Learn to "ATTRACT" love, hope, joyeful and true people into your life.Learn that hurts that hurt you is nthing except a reminder of a new lesson you learnt.Learn to Stand up and say I can do it! Nothing will let me down and You will do it.

My Self, Simply I love you because you deserve to be loved..I pray for your self-Peace and Self-acceptance now and forever...


With Hope,love and peace,
Nanis

3 comments:

Florent said...

very original, good luck for your blog !

I'd like to say more, but as I'm French, my english is so poor that I can't add anything ...

;-)

Youmna :) said...

A Great Kick Off for Your Blog ya nano.. I loved the idea of the letter .. I loved what you wrote .. the post was missing"A Special Thanks" :P:P
but its AMAZIIIIIIIIIIIIING ... Hope would others also would reach to believe and learn the fact that we shouldnt hate ourselves whatsoever and learn to "Attract" Love , Joy and Happiness.

Wishes of Joy& Happiness 4ever..
Urs ,
Youmna :):)

omarusan said...

IT IS REALLY INSPIRING AND gr8!
Specially the last part saying

My Self, Simply I love you because you deserve to be loved..I pray for your self-Peace and Self-acceptance now and forever!!!

Really helw 2awy!